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hello wello peeps, merry christmas! hope you had a great christmas :D i had mine peacefully at home, snuggling in bed, watching movie marathon all by myself. but i'm happy that way cause i hate crowds. and christmas means big big crowds on the street. when i think of christmas, all i think about is food food and food. HA christmas makes me feels like having a great feast. oh man, but i didnt. anyway, this year christmas aint so festive to me. and 2009 is ending too soon. i haven even send out or done any of my cards. :s oh wells, oh wells. no resolution and no lookbacks for this year. 'cause either they dont work or i have done too many. so hope everyone had a great 2009! i did. :D

hello world, i decided to peek my head out from my shell. sort some thoughts out, left some intrigued ones, and i have not done my way overdue cards. went for training ytd, i decided i'm gng for grading. we learned some self defence too. it feels good to sweat after months of non-exercise. yay to tkd! the girls gathering today, initial plan for picnic at barrage fail due to wet weather. ended up our picnic was at a corner of shing's place, ha. catch up a lot and looking back, i think we did talk a lot.

life aint as great as others may think it is after 'A's. i feel like saying no when people goes like, "hey, enjoying your holiday uh?" but i wont, i mean what else could you say, when you dont know as much as the other person dont. i'm feeling way more confused and lost after As then before. maybe i need a purpose, an aim, a deadline, something big for me to anticipate. it kinda seems like i'm being rushed into deciding my future. "so what do you want to be?" "so which scholarship are you applying for?" when i doubt i can even get one. "so what are you planning to study?" if i can get into university, if i get good results. which all pretty much sums up to one big question mark. the future looks way too blur. it gets on my nerve sometimes, these thoughts worries me. i wish i was young again, we all do on some point of time. carefree is the feeling, which we no longer feel nowadays. and i miss it, a whole load. sigh,...

i didnt know why i skip it today, or maybe i do. it was the fear i had, i guess deep down i always knew i would. maybe it wasnt such a big deal to others, but it was to me. always has been, maybe always will be. the idea just stuck with me the whole time even before i signed up. at times like this i hate myself. for being so weak, for the need for someone to push me, for being a failure. i knew guilt follows right after that, but people always tend to choose the easy way out, dont we? we made decisions we knew we will regret after, but we still do. it's life's one big irony. i think i need a stronger will. sigh, i need a getaway, a long one. feeling too much ridiculous anger nowadays, for reasons i dont even know myself. feel like mia-ing. probably a week?

a walk down haji lane, crazy laughters due to the guitar curse. 6 fingers, O.M.G, etc. i guess we all need a break from our lives. sometimes the smile doesnt reach the eyes.

so prom ended, surprisingly quite fun i may add. wells, after fretting about for the right dress, right hair, right makeup, right shoes, right accessories, basically right everything, i realise prom was a little more than just that. because simply it was the last. and the power of the word last is bigger than what you perceived. took photos and all with lots of people. some are dear but i know i wont see after. some are keepers and i know whom we will make an effort to see each other after. some are friends for years and i know will continue for years after. was watching the video on events in our jc life, and so many memories flew past my mind. it was like seeing my life for the past two years flashing before my eyes except i wasnt going to die, obviously. i wasnt kidding when i said i felt like crying, ha. sometimes i think i'm too sentimental for my own good. it felt just like yesterday when i stepped into jj wondering if i made the right choice, when i went to or...

"confusion is the beginning of understanding, discomfort is the beginning of a skill."

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.” -Neil Gaiman

all that unpublished published.

so it's the 30th, check. last paper done, check. jumped for joy in jovial, blank. screamed out loud in euphoria, blank. i thought i will be damn damn happy 'cause the big As is over. but all i feel is just a sort of numbness. i have no idea why, but oh wells. at least it's over, a big rock off my heart till the result day. so now i can fall back into my book world and do whatever i want till i'm pleased. except that i'm utterly broke ttm, and i badly need money. prom and my wants wants wants. it's funny how when you finally tasted freedom, it doesnt taste as sweet as you had imagined.

dear someone, i wrote down things i wanna do after 'A's. Then i reread it and felt that it wasnt much. so i push it aside, daydreamed about the faraways. then finally fall back to reality and hit the books. somewhere inside i felt kind of empty, a tugging feeling i couldnt quite explain. Is uncertainty pulling on the strings of my heart?

new found understanding tonight, i made a random promise with doreen. if we have no bf when we are 21, then we will buy tao huey for each other. hah, 3 years seem far, but it isnt. things changes, time passes. at this night, i feel like i'm still young. for the very first time in a while. lifting off the stress society placed on my heart, i can breathe and feels like my future is there. shining and bright, waiting for me to discover. our road is still long.

i like long walks under the just right sun, just me, my music and my thoughts. i like long bus rides, few passengers, me alone by the window, with the sun shining in, watching the sceneries fly past, and engage in my random ideas. i like quiet trips to my library with not much people, music plugged softly into my ears, eyes scanning the shelves, stopping occassionally to enjoy my favourite beats, and enjoy the peacefulness i feel in my self created world. when the going gets tough, these are my heart's only desires.

sometimes i think i'm selfish. i knew it but i pretended i didnt. because i wanted things to stay the same as it is. can't we just stay as friends? i thought to myself. was i too cruel, to deny you before you could speak? sometimes i know i'm wrong. because avoidance simply isnt the key nor the solution. yet, i picked this path that i knew will make us further and further. when pretence fail, when things become too obvious, i chose to escape. and i know too well i was being selfish again. maybe i was saving myself from the hurt, but i wasnt saving you.

do you have the magic touch? i had, once i did. i still remember that feeling. you feel your own lips turning up unknowingly. it felt good, it did. when you tap someone, and there he turns and instantly an automatic smile lights up with recognition.

Prologue: "Everyone has something that they haven't seen before in this world. It's something very kind and sweet. If they saw it, everyone would probably want it. That is why the world hid the thing, so people can not easily obtain it. One day, someone will find it. Only that one person will obtain it. It is something like this." Epilogue: "There's something in this world that no one has seen before. It is gentle and sweet. Maybe if it could be seen, everyone would fight over it. That's why no one has ever seen it. The world hid it so that no one could get their hands on it easily. However, someday, someone will find it. The person who deserves it the most will definitely find it. This is how it's created. " -toradora it even started and ended with the same scene.

"Then how do we dance? We hold hands and look at each other, then we go in circles till we get tired. " -toradora

3 days, 3 fateful days then the race starts. i really dont know why i'm not preparing myself well for the race. overconfidence? complancency? or just plain stupidity? i know, & i know well i will definitely look back and regret that i didnt do enough or anyth much at all. and that's what irks me now. it's ironic how i'm feeling stressed from not studying and yet i'm not studying. it's this feeling of restlessness and stress that i dislike, plus that sense of lost. i gotta a feeling that i dont know where to start. i wasnt like that during the 'o's. i guess it's a whole different story now. since it's ordinary and advanced.

great night, back to reality tmr. ten is the magic word. on hiatus till i feel like it. 30 represents freedom. i will work hard for it. :]

as the clock strikes twelve, it marks another day gone down. feels like the world is crashing down, my head is gonna explode now. guilty pleasures, feeling restless. what am i doing now?

The drama serial on tv is showing scenes of leaving, reflecting the feeling of mine now. Last day of school tomorrow, i'm already feeling nostalgic. Call me sentimental or emotional but i've always hated parting. Yet it's something that is unavoidable. I understand that every end signifies a new beginning. And this time, this beginning is the start of the big 'A's. As i see the numbers by the school gate dropping day by day, i feel anxiety and fear creeping up on me. Received my results today, extreme ends, i'm feeling both consolated and worried. Sigh, i need to take in more vitamin C as the stress level keep climbing up. Godspeed to all taking the 'A's! "Be miserable. Or motivate yourself. Whatever has to be done, it's always your choice." -Dr. Wayne W. Dyer Two years or in fact one and half year has passed by so quickly, i've met some great people and some not so great ones whom some i gradually accepted. I've ma...

"I need to find a purpose. One I can wake up to every morning, that gets me out of bed and on my feet. Something I can stand by and which I can ensure reaches it’s destined end. To make me a worthier person than I am, I need a purpose. " -Somebody And study is not it, but right now i need to make it it . when did we consider coming to school as a sign of normalcy? but it is a sign, a comfort in fact. maybe we just need an indication that we are all okay. at least one that puts one's mind to ease. on the surface, we must look fine. new timetable in school is mentally draining, not physically. 2.5 hours lessons are really brain killlers. makes me feels like a robot just accepting but not processing. maybe this is not such a good idea afterall. needtostudyneedtopractiseasapmanymany. breathe that sigh of relief, when all this is over

I'm probably the first in jj to be sat on an office chair and push by two teachers to the sickbay. It was embarrassing yet ridiculously funny at the same time. thanks all whom expressed their concern for me today. & i'm still super embarrassed for sitting in the middle of the field like that. sigh sometimes i really hate this, but if i look out for that silver lining. it's what made me realised people do care and worry for me. nonetheless, i would gladly minus the pain and sufferings though. sigh i realised i have nice classmates afterall :] & friends too.

have you ever get the feeling that you have to say something to fill in the silence when you are sitting in a group? i used to hate talking in a big group. because when all eyes suddenly fall on me, the words on the tip of my tongue vanish and my joke strangely dont seem as funny to me as a moment ago. so i prefer to listen and observe in a group. i used to seek for signs from people's faces to convince myself that they are enjoying themselves. most often these signs are laughters or smiles. so i end up cracking my brains for something to lift the mood. but i learnt that these are not the way to be. 'cause it's too tiring when you care too much about all the others but yourself. and hey, i found out today that people can still be really enjoying themselves though their expressions dont show it. 2 days or less till school starts. i've been going out consecutively since the holidays started. while my teachers' words kept popping up at the back of my mind...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY leow guiyen! hope you are enjoying your special day in china :D

korean's cravings +sis's treat +shopping=happy, satisfied, fattening & broke day :B

prelims ended yesterday, i should be all jubilant and celebrating. instead i just kind of have a numb and dull feeling. perhaps coz i didnt really study hard after the first week, it was just like normal days for me. so it makes no difference. got back several results yesterday. maths was disappointing. chem was much more better than i expected. physics i failed p2 just as expected. oh well, i think i figured out my problems. the harder part now is actually to follow my study plan and actually sit down to study, then improve. godspeed for me. righttt, i have 5 minutes to bathe and fall sleep. training tmr, i must wake up in time. :D

"A very small degree of hope is sufficient to cause the birth of love." -Stendhal(1783-1842 French) read this somewhere a long long time ago, and it constantly pops up on my mind now and then. not just love but many things around you. you see hope everywhere. be it that poor little girl on tv living in poverty eagerly learning in a so-called classroom aspiring to grow up as a doctor and live a better life. or that lady with red swollen eyes sitting on the chair outside the waiting room in the hospital with her hands clenched tight in prayers. or that man on the street walking out of a betting station with that ticket in his hand, smiling gleefully to himself. why? just because, it's hope that keeps you going.

You ask me if I love you and I choke on my reply. I'd rather hurt you honestly than mislead you with a lie. everyone's talking about how it's only the first week of prelims and it's already so draining. i'm sick of all these complains. and all the people around me telling me they are sad or depressed or stressed, while i feel like i'm obliged to say something or do something to make them feel better. but i can't, i have nothing . because i'm all that too. i need some positive people around me rather than all the negative aura. i cant always be the happy person around. what's the point of whining that you cant finish studying and then proceed to sit around. seriously, testing my patience. sigh, can't we just work hard together and go through this together? i dont need sweet words or brilliant advices. all i need is a simple word of encouragement when i'm feeling i cant made it. is that too much to ask for? it's okay, i shall be my own moti...

i promise myself i'll only read after the 'A's, and i will. so far i've been keeping the promise but there is a growing list of books i so wanna read. no, i shall not succumb to temptations. oh well, back to studying. studying, studying. i've this growing urge to cut my hair short.

do you know it's august already? stumbled against someone's blog just now. so i admit i was snooping around, reading some of her past entries :x but with a healthy curious mind, not with any ill intention! i think blog is quite interesting actually, it's like an online secret-but-not-so-secret diary. it allows people to know how your mind works, and you get to see another side of them. :] i mean 'cause humans are not exactly straight forward and we dont have the super power to read minds too. sooooooo, as i said, it's interesting. but well, there's always a flipped side to things and i'm not going into that. what i read just now was pretty heart warming :] so then i went back to read some of my past entries, and it was pretty intriguing too. shant say why, ho. oh and i notice a trend, i seems to always fall sick almost once a month. be it cough, flu, fever or gastric. and i proudly announce i'm sick today D: i've got a fever but it's not my fault...

i'm a happy girl today :D 'cause i watched UP! the old couple was so sweet, and i want somebody like that too. watching clouds in the sky, till we are old and gray.

i wanna watch UP. i wanna lay on the field at night, looking at stars in the sky. i wanna go for a walk, surrounded by the greens. we dont have to talk, we can just walk. letting time flows by us. if i am brave enough, i would have long gone alone. and enjoy all the time in the world to myself. but i'm not. maybe someday i will. why do every simple thing have to become so complex? i'm sick of this really.

you tell yourself you shouldnt do it, you know you shoudnt do it, but you still did.

gastric's been acting up, been feeling sour at the back of my mouth the whole day. my gastric hurts, and it feels like i cant breathe. greattt day. monday maths test, tuesday econs mock prelim, thursday physics test, friday chemistry test, saturday maths mock prelim, sunday econs conference. greattt week ahead, weee. aint we all excited? FML

Sometimes we need to take a break, from this mundane lifestyle. Sometimes we need to stop and think, to ask ourselves why are we doing this. Because all this may not matter as much tomorrow, may not matter at all one day. You ask me what is the meaning of life, what is right and wrong? freak, I seriously dont know the answer. It's such a profound question that i can take forever to ponder. I'm scared too, I'm uncertain too. I dont think I have the ability to point you at the right direction. because i'm afraid my belief will falter, my facade will crumble. What if one day the world as you knew it collapses?

escapism , too many times you use this to handle the situation. the story is getting old, the scene is fading out. when will you ever face the truth? déjà vu, this is all too familiar

now, i need all the encouragements, drive, motivational quotes, determined thoughts and inspiring companions i can get.

a rude awakening, a total wake up call. the war starts now and it is up to me to run the last lap. one month. "This is reality, dear."

finally my birthday post :D this 18th was sadly, spent with my econs and physics notes. but i heard the most awesome acappella version of happy birthday song sang to me at the moment when the clock struck 12. featuring none other than my favourite family three. :] a big thankyou to all those who wished me by phone, sms and facebook. especially my campers whom remembered! such a pleasant surprise ;D i had a blissful birthday due to you,you,you and all of you. :D and also big thankyou to my family who celebrated with me while i was stressing myself up with physics equation. celebrations there after were all great! on friday, by my awesome charm'dz though birdie is down with fever. we had a great catch up at holland v swensen's though it was freezing cold. and continuing at the playground, it's been long since i have such a nice chat. enjoyed the special ride home courtesy to c's dad. thanks for the lovely framed collage :D today was spent with the fav F3, picnic at hortpa...

weeeeeeeee~ i survived my four days of test-a-thon! well, i wouldnt say it's brilliant and i would probably flunk chemistry. but i wont think about it for the moment and let myself enjoy in this liberated mood. short break to recharge myself in this long weekend. and today ended great with transformers 2 and shopping with my sis! :D optimus prime & bee

30 hours and less till mids & approximately 50 more chapters to go :/ and i have only myself to blame.

freak, i think i subconsciously placed too much hope on having an extended holiday. that explains the relaxed mood i'm having despite having less than a week to complete revision of my four untouched subjects. at least i feel sort of accomplished today for packing the whole day with my sis. alright, no more dilly-dallying and i shall complete my to-do list. and not let myself be demoralised and lose my motivation. :] i feel a bad vibe from you.

less than two weeks one week more 9 days left of holidays! what have i been doing for the past three weeks. oh righttt, going out, playing the sims, using the comp. what happened to studying? *inserts panic attack* i must tidy up my shelves, plan study plan, study. say no to going out too often, say no to unnecessary usage of computer, say no to slacking about. somehow miraculously turn into mugging mode which i never manage to attain. life ahead seems miserable. :(

i have been in the playing and holiday mood since tuesday. zomg, not a good sign, not a good sign at all! gp midyear is on monday, and i havent touch a single page of content. gahhh. but this week had been fun with plenty of gatherings and meetups. that's what holidays are for. yea! impromptu meet up with yen yesterday was splendid! retail and food therapy is the best! :D and i think i talked nonstop ytd, alllll the way. i think we always tend to meet up around this time of the year. brothers outing today to rail mall, railway and meadow is fun too! took plenty of pretty pictures. :D and i totally disrupted their studying plan, kept disturbing them. talking about random topics. & i upload photos so much faster than mildred! yay for me!

i think it's been a long time since i cried so hard while reading a book. i'm not sure that others would understand what i understood from this book, somehow i just did. it just got to me. Sarah Dessen does amazing works. i felt so close to the character that it was just so sad. i felt her anxiety, her pain, her inner dilemma and i wanted so much to save her. ask her to run, ask her to talk, ask her to cry it out. but crying doesn't help if it's not heard, does it? well, it's now then i realise i was wrong. love is not that simple, it's an intriguing matter. it can't be solved logically nor rationally. love is giving someone that power to hurt you. and i thought you were stupid, i was the one who was dumb. it's like a balancing act. you try to balance out the bad moments using good moments. but in the end, it's all just a lie to yourself, something for you to believe in. something for you to desperately grasp hold of, 'cause the truth just hurts ...

it was at that moment, all you want in the world is to win. a desire so strong that it filled your mind and heart. prayed hard, willed strong, hoped high. but apparently our wish fell through. true enough, higher hopes bring greater disappointments. but isnt it innate nature for one to desire to win. my heart literally ache when i see all those tears falling, 'cause i knew there's nothing i could do, nothing i could say to comfort, you just feel so useless there and words became worthless. your own celebratory mood instantly drown out and all you feel like is to cry. they were so close, so close yet so far. well, it is true that competition brings out the ugly side of human nature but it also brought people together as a team. all the hard work, moments of despair, supporting one another. it doesnt all amount to nothing. ♥ taeguek 6 and damn to all those who look down on our sport, i'm still glad i joined tkd last july. not everything ends up to have a happy ending, 'ca...

this is such a bad timing to fall sick, seriously. i'm partly pissed with myself for falling sick, partly pissed for whatever that makes me sick. one moment i was fine, and the next i am feverish, nauseous and suffering from gastric. sucks. we have came so far, we tried so hard and trained so hard. fretting over every move, worrying over every stances, encouraging each other when we were tired, low in morale and ready to give up. i dont want to give up at the very last lap. sighhhh, i hope i get well enough tmr, please. so that at least i can try my best. we must win tmr! go taeguek 6! :]

"Inertia is so easy- don't fix what's not broke. Leave well enough alone. So we end up accepting what is broken, mistaking complaining for action, procrastination for deliberation." -adapted from "North of Beautiful"

sometimes i wish that things can happen one at a time, so i need not fret, need not feel guilty, need not feel angry, need not feel stressed up, need not feel sad, need not be in a dilemma, need not worry. so that i can concentrate. but the world just doesnt work this way. just like what shawn says, sometimes i hope i have the courage to hurt others for my own selfish gains, so that i need not care. but it's just so hard.

the past week was, i supposed quite busy though i couldnt recall anything, it just seems so far away. i only rmb being obsessed with cooking mama & conan comics. i shall go check my plannar to see what happened. so, yup. wednesday was council investiture and i was the vip usher. was somehow feeling quite jittery and i screwed up a little at the part when mr leow was giving his speech. felt happy for my campers but i know that credit isnt mine. some of us had a mini concert in the hall after that featuring smelly feet. :D nice one hour spent. friday, met up with the girls. catched up with each other and everybody was still as chatty as ever. the highlight was corina's story of course. LOL photos are all still with miss pamela lek. xD oh right, and i met a weirdo uncle on the bus. traumatising, very. ytd was spent at joey's. i went though i thought the studying wouldnt be productive. but it was actually better than last time. joey's mum is still as hospitable as ever. and...

treasure the moment, because it wont ever be the same. read joey's and mildred's post, felt a tinge of sadness. i know f3 wont be the same when we leave school, just like 4e3 aint the same when we graduate. yes, we do have outings and we will have outings, but the familiar feelings of seeing each other in school wont be the same. change and partings are inevitable, all i want for us is to treasure this moment before we all go our seperate ways. instead of fretting over our parting, we shall make beautiful memories. iloveyou.

you know the weekend is ending when you feel the familiar sense of dread. dang it's been a long and busy weekend, but it hasnt been exactly a great weekend. all because of the stupid cramp. :/ anyway, thurs i had dinner with beloved f3. the turnup was pretty great and it felt like i havent really seen some of them for a long time. though i do see them in sch, it just doesnt feel the same. after tt five of us went to joey's hse for a supposingly mugging session stayover. but we ended up watching a movie and then KO-ed till the next morning. we all squeezed on the floor while she slept on the bed. LOL the next morning, it was joey's music school time. we were playing the piano, keyboard, guitar or the computer game on her laptop. oh, and also her little car. and we were all kind of obsessed. HA! and the in between small talk was both satisfying and shocking. ended up i did zero studying. :x but many thanks to joey's mum for taking great care of us, fed us really really we...

phew, i finally had a bath & now i feel so much better. i think i was so stinky just now that i couldnt stand myself. xD my shirt had been drenched in sweat in the morning, then soaked by rainwater and finally stank by the smell of pepper lunch! woohoo~ anyway, grading is over. i thought i could have done better, but well it was okay. the no. of ppl gng for grading today is a scary 79. zomg, the big crowd was seriously hard to control and getting on my nerves. enjoyed the talk with sir eric and joanne they all after lunch. learnt something new abt jj tkd, like wow. celebration just now wasnt too bad. the cake tasted much better than i thought it would be. the card making and the cake decorating was fun. hope she likes her presents. :D happy 18th meiling! i promise i'll be a good kid and not skip sch tmr. and i'll probably KO-ed right after this. sighh, no need to do my tutorials again. and sighhhhh, i'm seriously damn broke, 30cents in my wallet. anyway, here's the ...

i was thinking maybe it's time for me to do some self reflection. 'cause there's the constant same old thoughts going through my head whenever i'm catching a breather or whenever i'm stoning. honestly, this year has been so busy and stressful that i realise i've been neglecting the people and the things happening around me. what caused me to realise this, is actually that i realised i forgot a close friend's birthday only after a month after his birthday. i was so self absorbed in my own world and problems that i didnt take note of my surroundings. i just looked back at the entries of the past three months and basically i was so self obsessed due to three things or actually one thing: coping with orientation, school work and at the same time being terribly sick. seriously, i felt like i was dying that time, having your health constantly deteriorating for a month or more while i was so stressed about my school work. having headaches everyday no matter how muc...

it was a totally random and sudden decision, and there i was being pull to queensway to check out supplier for the f3 tee. while on the 45mins bus ride, we supposingly wanted to talk and discuss abt the upcoming plan. ended up, we were camwhoring with chuHAM's phone. LOL i had laksa and my yummy meatballs just now. :D had a hearty talk with mildred and shawn at ikea till 9+. ended up reaching home at 11pm and it's a sch night. i think i totally stressed them out just now. :x times spent like these with them are getting shorter and lesser. ); i wish we didnt have to study every free moment for the big A, then we would have more time together. oh, & i screwed up chem test today. ); my brain was totally dead after 1h of chem lecture and 1 half hour of tutorial. i sort of gave up on the test and took the easy way out. anyway, thankyou for the bag of marshmallow though it's not kinderjoy! LOL but it did make my day, to be not so down and stressed and all. thankyou :D

i feel accomplished today 'cause we trekked 11km in macritchie. and i wasnt feeling too bad after the walk. a little refreshing and it was a pretty good day. we went up to the tree top walk and also climbed up the jeletung tower and there was many monkeys which was super scary. there this whole gang at the 2nd floor who stare at you when you walk up the spiral staircase. feels like they are gna jump on you any moment. one even climbed up all the way to the top to look for food. doreen and zs KO-ed after the walk. so me and ben went to sumo hse to eat. and it was not bad, i like the miso soup and the egg! but maybe 'cause i was too hungry coz i didnt had breakfast. anyway, thanks for the treat ben! we should do this again some time. :D "PAO BU!" LOL