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officially a braceface! if i sound excited about this, i'm actually a little bit. 'cause this officially means progress. the whole procedure took about an hour. and the part which hurts most is when the dentist is putting metal rings on my back teeth. after that he glued the metal bits one by one to my teeth and stringed the wire through, tightened one by one and cut the excess wire and it's done! i chose blue rubber for my first braces, but they werent baby blue like i wanted ): braces feels weird, it makes me unable to close my mouth properly or speak properly. and my face looks a little swollen. and i dont know how to smile anymore. and i didnt dare to smile at little kid on the way home coz i was scared i would have scared them. and the worst part is i cant chew again, so i cant eat. ):

when i was a kid, around lower primary school i think. i fell down and knocked half of my then growing front teeth down. it was a life changing moment, i didnt know then. after which, i went to school a few days refusing to smile or talk. till one day, i went to the dentist in school and they helped me remolded the teeth, filling up the gap. it was a long process i remember, because i even skipped class and spent the whole of recess doing it. and then i was happy again. at least for a while. until my teeth started to grow and started to jut out. i forgot when did it start, but i used to smile without my teeth. it looked way too awkward and didnt look like a real smile. then i gradually mastered smiling without showing my teeth. but still, it didnt look as jolly as when i started smiling showing my teeth recently. and there are still cases i look way too awkward. more than once i had the chance to do braces, but i declined. because when i was a kid, i believed that those who really ...

pluck three teeth yesterday, and woke up today morning with blood taste in my mouth plus teeth feeling sore and painful. it was torturous. because i couldn't eat much except porridge, since i can't bite. and i just had to keep swallowing blood taste saliva the whole day. morning went to do root canal treatment on my dead front tooth. i spent half an hour waiting for the dentist who turned out not to be my dentist yesterday. and two hours for the whole process, laying on the freaking dental chair with my mouth open, and going to do x-ray twice. half the time i was waiting for the newbie looking dentist to find the correct equipment she wanted. and she just kept me hanging there. so damn glad she's not my dentist! in the end she gave me bad news about my tooth. zz went back to school to pack logistics while feeling super lousy about my teeth. urgh hungry and cranky

currently feeling depressed as i'm mourning over my loss of my three good teeth. went to the dentist today expecting that i'm going to pluck my teeth except that i was still clueless about my situation without prior consultation. my dentist was quite kind, thank goodness. did the consultation and the bad news is one of my front tooth is dead due to bacteria invasion, prolly due to the fall. so i will need root canal treatment and crowning which means more money :/ see the hole! decided to pluck my teeth today since i had already prepared for it mentally. it was scary laying in the chair and the Anesthesia shots were painful! it was many many shots i cant remember. the dentist uses a plier to shake my tooth right and left, i can sense what's his doing but i can't feel it. while he does that, the nurse held on to my head to steady it while the dentist uses force to pull my tooth. somehow i felt like smiling or laughing when my dentist was plucking my teeth, weird. you ...