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i cant believe i spent 24 hours or more than that with bangs, ah tiong & shorty. machiam like camp. first st james, and the highlight of the night is probably the gorilla dance by the epic lady. and also the stupid balloon incident of mine, and also the pretty cool waterfall. and somehow we hang out till 6am and then slept for around 3 hours at shawn's. then it was kids' day. it was funny, daring, stupid and fun all at the same time. plus totally spontaneous. please take a moment to imagine how a bunch of teens look like in ridiculous kids wear, and you will know why passerbys stare at us with mouth wide open. HA. but nonetheless, it was loads of funnnn. i finally had my U-D-D-E-R-S, blow bubbles automatically and tried flying a kite at the barrage. i almost succeeded till our kite got cut and flew away, mighty sad. we took tons of pretty pictures with huiyan's awesome camera, some really epic ones and some not so glam ones. then we headed off for dimsum ...

"the thing about being alone, in theory or in principle. Whatever happened - good, bad, or anywhere in between - it was always, if nothing else, all your own." - Sarah Dessen that's probably why some people really prefer to be alone. "I need some time to be alone." it is not weird or odd, it is just that sometimes we all need an escape the roles we have and just be. to cry out loud without other's sympathy, to vent your anger without having to deal. so that you are not whowhowho's friend or your dad's daughter or the elder sister. just me, before returning back to all the obligations. again, because we are all interlinked with each other. whether you like it or not. sometimes there's something serene of being lost in a crowd of strangers, other times not so.

you know, i really appreciate the perks of being a girl. but at times like these, i really hate to be one. i dont know why the hell this month p is so incredibly painful. and all because of the stupid cramps, i had to cancel an interview and miss out gatherings. adding on to the already foul mood. plus i barely sleeps. i so wna go cycle at ubin with the tkd peeps. sigh, this sucks.

tkd grading tmr. it's the first one that sparring is included. i'm feeling nervous just thinking about tmr. not too confident about my back thrusts and sparring but today's training did make me feel a little better. good luck for me tmr :] feeling kinda stressed nowadays for no apparent reason. and i started thinking about my results, was fearing that i wouldnt do well. that thought about the future scares me. and i hadnt been sleeping so well lately. lots of strange nightmares. maybe i should go to the temple to pray. get an amulet or something like that. ha

didnt sleep at least a day for the past three weeks. i think i'm getting too old for this. knocked out for 7 hours straight when i reached home. apparently there is a difference between outside and home. and i thought i was still very alert, ha. chalet with 4e3 was fun albeit a little short. we did the usuals, and the people are still as cute and fun as ever. the same familiar feelings. i guess the most epic moment is corina's little accident, i will probably remember the whole scene for life. :D loves the people

i figured i should do a quick post about the kukup trip for remembrance before the feeling is gone. well, kukup trip with f3 was a blast. it wasnt exactly due to what we did. as they are just regular things like visiting the fish farm, trying my hands on fishing, intense table tennis matches, singing k hysterically, mahjoong, fireworks and crackers, waiting for sunrise. nothing too spectacular or wow. but it was fun, it was very. perhaps it's because of the company. or even more perhaps due to the whole peace and tranquility vibe that the place gives off. very pure and simple, and the villagers are mostly very helpful. merely just sitting there facing a great view waiting for the sun to set was something great that i had yearn for, and found unexpectedly. i want to lie down under the stars the next time :] i've heard that the less you expect, the more you will be surprised. maybe it is true afterall.

i like that number, looks like binary to me, something out of a computer system. oh right, so it's 2010! 2009 past way too fast, and my memory is vague. it's funny i could barely recount anything much as i sat at keppel bay enjoying the sea breeze with f3 in the last hour of 2009. 3/4 of the year is prolly being preoccupied by studies studies and studies. well, i had a pretty crazy night out ytd, probably not crazy but... hmm, i dont have a word for it, maybe impromptu? so we had dinner at mildred's mum hse, she welcomed us with a whole table of food. i like her mum :D then was birthday celebration and deciding where to go for countdown on the bus. ended up we went to keppel bridge there, not a bad place at all. not too many people, had the sea breeze, had the festive season, the countdown screen, the people, and a nice view of fireworks. we did bilipanjang in the middle of the crowd in the first hour of 2010. super spontaneous and super malu, i guess we were ...