every page of my life.

from house surprise to squeezy sleepover to old school breakfast together at downstairs coffee shop to nua-ing & delaying time to korean bbq to surprise cake and wine, it was all great fun 'cause of the memories. but i just want to note down that one precious feeling when i was sitting there in the chair among the chaos and chit-chatting, reading that book of close to 3 years memories. it was a kind of moving happiness, where you want to smile and tear uncontrollably at the same moment. that book is one great treasure though not mine. but this family is one amazing treasure i found without deliberately finding three years back, all mine.

a camera,  a movie,  a car  and a dinner simple task, who knew it would become this tough - Hello Ghost (2010)

it's been long since i sat down and wrote about deep thoughts at this hour. tonight was one emotional night. once i left the dance floor, the emotions came rushing to me. i tried not to think or let myself feel affected, but i guess it did. i never dealt well with graduation or separation. and though it has been only one short year, the attachment is definitely there. i cant and dont want to imagine how's it like in two years time, and it will be me leaving. dance was a choice, and salsa was an accident. right now, i'm glad it happened. i still remembered the awkwardness at the beginning, when the joy was minimal. but now, i like how close we have all gotten together. who knows what will happen in the future? so i wish we all try new things, and take chances

 B&J FREE CONE DAY! finally, this year i went. it was a hot hot day, just right for ice cream. and luckily the queue was short.  out of all these, i had three! 2 cups 1 cone :D  totally out of my eating habit. they are the reason tuesday has been something for me to look forward to recently <3 if i could i would just stay there and chill under the hot sun. like we have nothing to care in the world. gorging on our ice cream and feeling blissful just because. as if i were a kid again

i think i might get addicted to the feeling on the stage. my first big dance performance wasn't perfect, wasn't the best run, but i was definitely enjoying myself. because i wasn't forcing myself to smile on stage. plus no major mistake for me, thanks to my partner too. the feeling was exhilarating, something i never experienced before. i remembered the feeling straight after the spotlight was off, i could breathe again and my throat was unbearably dry. i remembered everyone's face was gna burst from happiness and the urge to scream till we reach the dressing room. it was just a very celebratory mood, when you felt like hugging anyone. for that short minutes on stage, we trained so damn hard. and all those problems, stress, rush and angst. i'm so proud of my en sync babes for pulling through. <3 salsa en sync not to forget, all my beloved friends who came to support me. thanks for all the love, i heard my name loud and clear on stage yt...

i almost cried from the immense amount of stress today and last weekend. no matter how last minute i am, it's not this today. suddenly i find myself with three things due, one of them a presentation. horrors. oh wells, it's over! intense week since recess week has officially taken a break for me. now it's time to dance. focus focus. mini road trip tmr, i'm excited :D stage fright! please dont happen to me