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my mouth tastes all weird now due to all the chlorine filled water i drank at the pool today. and my hair is like super dry now. aftermath of swimming. it's been eons since i went swimming, i think the last time i went is like secondary one? one and only failed attempt to learn swimming. haha which means it's... let me count, six or seven years since i last went swimming! wow. swimming or whatever that is called before you actually learn how to swim, is actually pretty nice. i like the feeling in the water. no wonder people always say they like swimming because it can destress. anyway, my goal is to learn swimming so i can go snorkeling! snorkeling, snorkeling, snorkeling. *starts a chant* i think my body clock is screwed up againnnn after i stopped working. sigh, i must sleep early and wake up early man. it's unhealthy. and there's little blisters like things on my palm for quite a while. it's starting to irritate me. should i see a doctor about it...

i may look fierce and strong headed. but i am not one who like conflicts, unless absolutely necessary then i will face it. it's like my last resort unless i'm very pissed off. otherwise i would be the one who is backing down, being the softer side, letting it go. and i realise i work best when i'm flared up, suprisingly efficient. the words can come out surprisingly well stringed, like my english improved all of a sudden. tested in several occasions, ha. i admit it's partly my fault but this whole thing is blown way way out of proportion. i'm not some little girl who is new to the society and i'm not so stupid to miss the meanings in between your words. i.e i'm not so stupid to be duped. all i'm saying is the way you handle things is really unprofessional and well, really stupid. so thanks for pushing the whole damn fault to me. i totally felt like walking in the rain today when i was walking home today, it was gna be a heavy downpour accomp...

the title is from the cafe we went today. i thought it's pretty unique and maybe to some extent, true. i like the place, nice ambience. great place to spend a nice afternoon there, maybe with a book. will visit again someday. we celebrated wanrong's birthday belatedly today, feel kinda long since we last seen each other properly. there's a certain sense of familiarity yet a certain sort of distant feeling which i cant put to words. it's like i'm forever chasing, but never catching. anyway, it's still nice to see all of them together, full attendance. and i enjoyed today. we watched date night too, really pretty funny. i think the movie tried inculcating some deeper meanings in it but i just dont really relate. haha anyway, i was somewhat distracted by the crazily good looking foreigner sitting in the row behind us. and his girlfriend is real beautiful too. sigh, envious. on another entirely different note, i think i blew it with my agent today. c...

"Crying doesn't indicate you are weak. Since birth, it has always been a sign that you are alive." read this on someone's random tumblr post, pretty interesting i agree. and i suddenly remembered that one of the days last week, i woke up crying. coz i was too tired and i dont want to wake up so i jus sat there crying. kinda stupid i think. i think last week i had too many obligations, so maybe someone out there knew i need a rest. so they kindly shortened my contract and let me rest. everything kinda all fall into place, just nicely. so i've been enjoying my freedom for these two days. but i haven achieve my goals to sleep till i wake up naturally. gna do that tmr, yes! then i will go learn swimming one of the days, hopefully :D

oh right right, i totally forgot to mention this. i LOST my ez link student pass card. super duper maddening sad, i was unusually calm then. but i kinda lost it in the aftermath. maybe i have slow reaction. oh man, it's my third time. there goes all my student privileges and my toot photo. argh! mad mad sad ); it followed me for 6 plus years. T.T

oh right, forgot to mention this out of all the hecticness. i got into NTU without a need for interview! got my acceptance letter in the mail on friday, was so busy i didnt even had the honour to open the letter by myself. i got the news halfway during the mini ice cream party my colleagues threw for me on my last day! so sweet of them, literally. so now that's left is NUS.

"Kind words can be short and easy to speak, but their echoes are truly endless." Mother Theresa of Calcuta today felt so long ago, actually yesterday felt so long ago. actually the whole week seemed so long ago. i think too many events happened in a short period of time, it makes me feel kind of surreal. knocked out straight after i bathe when i came home today. slept till 10pm, i was real tired. schedule for the past friday and saturday were work, dance, sleepover movie marathon, ot work, f3 gathering flea market, home finally after 36 hours and more outside. reached home late, slept late, wake up early today, went volunteering. mad hectic week. but somehow i've got this wholesome and satisfied feeling. perhaps from today, or from saturday or from fri. these are all the ppl and things i love. dance on fri was fun, we alternate btw chacha and the newly learned rumba. fast slow fast slow, my feet almost broke. rushed home, rushed out. went to caveman...

mad mad mad busy and hectic week. i think the department is trying to fully exploit me before my contract ends. haha, i'm just kidding. but i've been working overtime every single day till 10pm everyday this week except today. tuesday was till 11pm, break my record. woohoo~ but there's just so so much to do before the deadline. tired and my back hurts, i cant stand straight. but today was fun coz we, the temp staffs aka my lunch buddies, decided to skip OT and head for a movie. impulse choice of movie, so we ended up with a brainless and lame till funny show, kick ass. laugh out super loud in the theater, i think we are all too stressed out from work. good day good day. last day of work tmr, gna miss them & i hope jy wont die doing all the sai kang by herself. :D

it's quite the irony when my last post just said that i needed a break, and now i get one so soon. after next week at least, then i'm officially out of job, one of them. maybe it's a sign that i should take a break and rest. stop all the hecticness for a while and slow down and look at my life. do the things i love to do, and meet the people i love to meet. i shall just wait and see, see what or where life brings me next. it's more of the sudden change in plan that makes me kinda sad than the thought of losing the job. but i think i will miss them after two and a half months of working together. i hope i get good colleagues for my next job too. and i shouldnt have self doubt, shouldnt. there's these whole jumble of words in my mind whenever i feel like writing. and the second thing i want to talk about is my dancing. it was dance practice night today, and i went down. watched some of the more skillful ones dance, and the first time i felt truely inspir...

i feel like i'm missing out so much just because i'm busy at work or because of my body condition. i feel like meeting up and going out with so many different people. and the guys are gng into army soon. and the poly people starts school soon. no time no time. finally done with all of uni application. now all that's left is interview or acceptance letter. and i can stop thinking about that first for a few second. i need a break. not a day or two, maybe a week. but i cant. i miss you, you, you &  you. );

crazily busy day today, i feel like there's so much things to do. maybe a little little taste of adulthood, now i understand why and how my colleagues became so tired. 24 hours barely seems enough. two tests, one celebration & a draft to write. unfortunately got my p today. and i reach home late at night. i didnt even had time to eat dinner. really mad busy this week. it really takes effort and strength to balance social life and work life. moreover i have two. overtime week. looking forward to the day off on the weekend. now off to write my draft before i can sleep. *yawns & i said every job is boring unless you find the fun in it.

i didnt know good friday could be so happy. yessah to long weekend. and meeting of Fthreeeeeeeeeeeeee. so long since the last meeting and i feel like i smile till my lips split to my ears today. crazy but delicious dim sum-ing. gna say i love them ttm. lovely peepo. oh right, and we spammed 700 photos today.