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no, i'm not gng to get the monday blues again. i'm feeling better, recharged over the long weekend. the word should be well rested. i didnt do much, just lie around doing brainless things. and went out with my sis to eat a very satisfying korean meal. sleep a lot, watch mindless shows. stop using my brain for a bit, ignore my phone for a few days. pack my desperately-needed-to-be-packed desk a bit. plus almost recovers from my two weeks old sickness. also, wallowed in self pity for a bit. i'm gna go to sleep now, and i'll be all ready for a brand new week. gna start ticking off the items on my to-do list!

sometimes it's unimaginable how mere words can impact so much. sometimes it's amazing how the presence of somebody can make so much difference. maybe it had been the weather, the bad days, the stuffy environment, but i was indeed pissed off today. and definitely disappointed. because i, personally thinks that every single one of you matters, i consider and made my choices accordingly to everybody or at least the majority. if this is the treatment i know i'm gna get, then forget it. i'm not doing this again. i can be selfish if i really wants to. if you think there really isnt much difference then dont bother to come at all again. it's not that i dont understand, but time and again you make the same mistakes and excuses. so what's more to say, what's left to say. i no longer know. short meetup just now, but still cheer up my night. it feels the same yet different. it's like we all grew up in an instant. when you walk behind, even the back ...

i guess i knew my day was gna go wrong right in the morning. although i had the long wanted breakfast with dad before work, a call in the morning just tipped off the whole day on the wrong side. so the day just got worse and worse with the ripple of bad news. the feeling in between the time of finding out something and taking the time to digest it sucks. my mind just comes out blank, like the machine that hangs. i need time to process, i think my brain works slower when i'm sick. the feeling of knowing something bad is gng to happen also sucks. it's like.. like you are anticipating to be scolded, it's just wrong. feeling all headache-y, i feel like putting everything on hold. i've got a long list of to-do list behind the back of my head which i can't recall now. i feel like gng on holiday NOW, like fly there right now. maybe that had been a sign to rest and focus on other bigger problems. i was feeling angry and sad at the same time. maybe it's too...

it has been relatively a while since i last fall sick seriously, at least since i can remember. actually i can, i just remembered! that time when i almost vomit my guts out, horrible. ah, never mind. at least comparatively to last year, my health conditions are relatively better. that's something to celebrate :D i'm feeling a lot lately, been clouding up my mind. there's not a moment when my mind aint thinking, even when i very much wants it to be. there's just so much to do, yet i'm not doing. and i want to do so much more than now. but it's still stuck in all my mind. such a fustration. last week felt so long long ago, new work has been so far manageable. the people there are friendly but a little intimidating. nevertheless, i think i can learn a lot there. never regretted not taking the previous job offer. there you have it! stupid ___! it's a wonder how you can do nothing much and a day can just be over. in a blink of an eye, a week w...

  sinful dayssssss. had carls' jr ytd and had huge dinner plus dessert today. three weeks at home has made me fatttttttttttt. i'm gna lose those weights man. sighhhhh oh yeah, and i had a great day today. thanks first day of work all over again tmr. i'm nervous :s & gna be lack of sleep. lastly, all big things start small. keep that in mind, that's my motivation. XOXO

was sieving through my past years photos just now. and lots of feelings came rushing back, involuntarily. it's really only when you take a look back, then you realised you have really grown. and many things only matter at the matter of the time. once it's over, it's meaningless. so seize the day, i must say! plan the meetups that never happened. say the words that are never spoken. do the things you want that always only remain in your brain. and for me, plan the trip that's gna/must happen. :} and i think i've said this before, gna say it again. i think i sucks in comforting others, really. when others tell me a problem, a situation or sth like that. my first thought is always "oh, then how now brown cow". not exactly very helpful nor comforting. coz i dont really believe that when i say "cheer up", "dont be sad", "dont cry" that sort of thing, the graveness of the situation will be lightened or it will make t...

i think that kids nowadays are really kinda sad, they are so stressed at such a young age. all i remember of my primary four life is all the playing, ice and water and such. no tuition at all, no studying too. but now, my student have chinese tuition on monday friday, my tuition on wed thurs, then swimming lesson and guitar lesson on saturday. not that i disapprove of his lessons on saturday. maybe that's the only thing that i lost out on, learning skills like that when i'm young. growing up, i wished that my mother had sent me to swimming lessons or music lessons. so maybe i could have some skills today. and my student was so stressed today coz he had tons of homework although exam is tomorrow. feels kind of sad for him when he complained that he's really tired. and there's once he told me his life is miserable. funny hearing that from a child. he's adorable today, coz he asked me why i didnt want to study in river valley high. then i told him i alread...