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as we grow older and are gradually being strapped down by school or work, i guess part of our spontaneity are gone with it too. birthdays are starting to become the excuse for gatherings. an occasion where we tell ourselves to try to make it down since it's a special day. i guess some changes are unavoidable. at least i think we made another crazy night. 9 people in a Suzuki Swift? Challenge Accepted. all we did when we arrived was to sit down and talk till late night, nobody actually wanted supper. i guess everybody just didn't wanted the night to end. it was then i realised everybody has grown up. shift of topics, less of childish banters, more responsibilities and smarter i would say, street smart. maybe because we have seen more of how the society works. good and bad, but i definitely missed meeting this family of mine since it has been a busy year so far. more times like this please!

still suffering from the performance high. it's been one year since my first performance. i've totally forgotten the feeling of actually being the dancer in the concert instead of just being the helper doing hair and makeup. and this feeling is awesome! the stage, the audience, the cheering and the applause. it makes all the effort and hard work worthwhile. totally forgotten but today i got all of them back again. and i thought i dislike performance. but with each one, i grow and learn a little more. and i will definitely miss performing with my girls. right now, this team this batch and this day will never be the same again. appreciate all the encouragement and effort en sync showed. good times :)

was walking home tonight with a broken slipper after yet another late night rehearsal. it was quite the depressing day. I really wished that this year can start over so that I could have made some decisions that would change things now. this year had been a really bad start and even till now I feel that I'm slipping. and it's worse when i know that i wanted more or i could do so much more. oh wells, it's too late to regret. I shall just move on and step up my game. hope the performance tmr night goes well. and I shall again feel that performance high.

recess week this time round is a real nightmare. it's been the 4th consecutive day with project meetings that last from morning to night. there haven't been a night i can go home in time for dinner. meetings are not draining, it is the constant rushing for deadlines after deadlines, generating reports till late night after i get home that is draining. no time for myself to settle all the non project stuffs, plus all my study plans flopped. what's more cancelling outings and dinners for projects which really bums me out. social life, studies and sleep. is there really no way i can balance all these and do well in all of it?