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"To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all.” i thought i've posted this before but apparently not. the reason why this quote stuck on me for so long is maybe i do question myself sometimes whether i'm really living? whether i am doing enough. yes, i may be busy but so? does that mean i'm living my life? found little enlightenment tonight through a friend. "everybody has different goals and expectations in life. so who's to judge if what you're doing is 'big' or 'meaningful' enough? i mean like so as long an individual gives his/her best shot, no regrets man." so i've been the one judging myself all this while. and this time i think maybe i shouldn't be so harsh to myself. well at least sometimes.

so it's another one of those supper night out, this time with only cream of the crops coz pui couldnt make it the last minute. went to a new place tonight, prata again with murtabak and teh. food was quite good. but the night walk around the shop houses and the estate was great, while we traded stupid stories we did when we were kids. then we climbed over the fence and went into the abandoned tanjong pagar railway station. cant believe my first time there is actually at this hour. fun night but we got a summon ticket at the end :/

proclaimed drinking session turned out to be one filled with competitive games of five stones and pick up sticks. and morphed into a totally high level of trust htht. but the magic was broken once we stepped out of the room. and so all we thought was why did we just said that. feeling like we crossed some imaginary boundaries yesterday night.

in the midst of hectic school week with quizzes and project meetings, i went to catch a movie with my tutorial mates, i.e cream of the crops which they like to call themselves. suave male lead, beautiful female lead, exciting fight scenes coupled with a super adorable and handsome kid is the winning formula to make an awesome movie, at least to me. haven't enjoyed myself so much and laughed so hard in theaters since the start of this semester. so say cheers to spontaneity and a great monday night!

so i was on this topic tonight, love. and the thing is relationship breaks you, i've seen so many cases recently. you gave someone your trust and your heart, and then it got broken. it somehow shatters you too, and people changes. that's the scary thing, people changes and they somehow never get back up again. it's like a small part of them died too when the relationship died. maybe that's why, maybe i'm scared. and i dont want to place my heart out. maybe

no photo today. cause it was raining, and the whole morning was too busy. so it's like this, it was a fine morning which i thought i had ample free time to run my errands. so it turned out my friend injured herself but didnt go to the hospital. and then i was looking for a car and a driver who is in school and has no lesson on a tuesday. while rushing around finishing my errands. then came the epic task of bringing her down to the car with 3 levels of stairs. every step was painful to her. it was painful to watch yet funny in a way. we shld totally have video-ed it down man, one epic sch day to remember.

impromptu craving satisfied. went to have dessert with tutorial mates after the submission of two projects. we were talking and then we realised that one year had passed. when we looked back, we did do quite a lot of stupid and crazy stuff last year. heh :D

time flies, we all know that. but this semester, it flew amazingly fast. recess week just passed, i didnt expect that it will be free. but i didnt even get a day for myself or my studies. it was dedicated to project meetings, salsa camp, tuitions and one day reserved for my sister. oh wells, at least life is kinda fulfilling now. just ended my stint for my psle kid, i hope he improves. primary school kids nowadays have a really sad life. not like the childhood we had and talked about during salsa camp. felt like i could had done so much more when i was young. six more weeks of school and it's exams time. better study hard!