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childish little mind games we played

i may look fierce and strong headed.
but i am not one who like conflicts, unless absolutely necessary then i will face it.
it's like my last resort unless i'm very pissed off.
otherwise i would be the one who is backing down, being the softer side, letting it go.
and i realise i work best when i'm flared up, suprisingly efficient.
the words can come out surprisingly well stringed, like my english improved all of a sudden.
tested in several occasions, ha.

i admit it's partly my fault but this whole thing is blown way way out of proportion.
i'm not some little girl who is new to the society and i'm not so stupid to miss the meanings in between your words.
i.e i'm not so stupid to be duped.
all i'm saying is the way you handle things is really unprofessional and well, really stupid.
so thanks for pushing the whole damn fault to me.
i totally felt like walking in the rain today when i was walking home today, it was gna be a heavy downpour accompanied with loud thunders.
kinda matched my mood, yea.
but when i reached home, all i felt is exhaustion.
not exasperation, not anger, just tired.
so i rested my case, didnt really want to dwell in the matter anymore.
lastly, i just feel sad for you, sympathy that's what it is.
and i'm way sick of explaining.
outsiders just wouldnt see it my way, they see no reason except that i'm being stubborn.
fine then, 'cause i'm sick of explaning the details.
it's another whole long story.
this whole thing has been giving me a damn headache.

maybe this is another sign that i should look for a new path.
then very well, i will gladly do so.
no thanks for the lesson learnt.

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