my head hurts now from too much crying today, and a little bit of swelling in my eyes too.
nervous, cry.
too happy for others, cry.
sad for others, cry.
i think my waterworks broke down today, hur.
it's true that anxiety kills.
and i felt it today.
this feeling i got in the hall it's like a giant emotions balloon waiting to explode.
you can see it on their faces, everyone was nervous while waiting for the moment.
faces tense, smiles that looked sort of forced and fake, trying to smooth out their nervousness.
and when the moment came, all hell broke loose.
some screamed, some jumped for joy, some sobbed, some solemnly sad which are the hardest to approach.
i think i was hysterical.
i can't really remember what exactly i did.
everything happened too fast.
i think i screamed several O-M-G, teared a little, while trying to take it all in.
oh yah, i think my hand shook.
hysterical is definitely the word.
i cant begin how to describe my results.
definitely very disappointed in my maths.
but the others make up for it.
the worst becomes the best, irony somehow.
surreal surreal.
this type of things are hard to say, because everyone have different expectations.
but i'm contented and happy, and that's what matters.
oh, and thankful, especially to my teachers.
managed to thanked a few.
i'm extremely proud of those who did well, especially benjamin.
and sad for those who didn't.
i hate it when people cry, but i hate it even more when people don't.
it's even more awkward and renders me speechless.
i sucks at comforting others.
the aftermath of all these emotional roller coaster, kinda sucks.
after everything settled down, you just feels kind of empty.
and the big question is where are you heading to, for each and everybody.
and that's what sucks.
'cause i have no idea, absolutely zero.
i'm so pathetic.
i thought when i got my results, i will know.
but it didnt came, my inspiration.
it doesnt mean that when you get decent results you will know, it just means that you have more choices than the others.
doesnt it feels so much like all of a sudden we are force to grow up?
imagine a deadline when you have to grow up or you never will, pretty scary hur.
the big word future is frightening scary, lots of decisions to make.
life-long ones, so they say.
adult front, child heart, we are.
lost, lost, pretty lost we are, we are.
nervous, cry.
too happy for others, cry.
sad for others, cry.
i think my waterworks broke down today, hur.
it's true that anxiety kills.
and i felt it today.
this feeling i got in the hall it's like a giant emotions balloon waiting to explode.
you can see it on their faces, everyone was nervous while waiting for the moment.
faces tense, smiles that looked sort of forced and fake, trying to smooth out their nervousness.
and when the moment came, all hell broke loose.
some screamed, some jumped for joy, some sobbed, some solemnly sad which are the hardest to approach.
i think i was hysterical.
i can't really remember what exactly i did.
everything happened too fast.
i think i screamed several O-M-G, teared a little, while trying to take it all in.
oh yah, i think my hand shook.
hysterical is definitely the word.
i cant begin how to describe my results.
definitely very disappointed in my maths.
but the others make up for it.
the worst becomes the best, irony somehow.
surreal surreal.
this type of things are hard to say, because everyone have different expectations.
but i'm contented and happy, and that's what matters.
oh, and thankful, especially to my teachers.
managed to thanked a few.
i'm extremely proud of those who did well, especially benjamin.
and sad for those who didn't.
i hate it when people cry, but i hate it even more when people don't.
it's even more awkward and renders me speechless.
i sucks at comforting others.
the aftermath of all these emotional roller coaster, kinda sucks.
after everything settled down, you just feels kind of empty.
and the big question is where are you heading to, for each and everybody.
and that's what sucks.
'cause i have no idea, absolutely zero.
i'm so pathetic.
i thought when i got my results, i will know.
but it didnt came, my inspiration.
it doesnt mean that when you get decent results you will know, it just means that you have more choices than the others.
doesnt it feels so much like all of a sudden we are force to grow up?
imagine a deadline when you have to grow up or you never will, pretty scary hur.
the big word future is frightening scary, lots of decisions to make.
life-long ones, so they say.
adult front, child heart, we are.
lost, lost, pretty lost we are, we are.
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